Sunday, April 22, 2007

"Wer nicht wird, wird Wirt." Translation: "Who can't, becomes a bartender." Sort of like: ''Who can, does. Who can't, teaches.'' This is for you Nussbaum: "Who can't teach, becomes a sports teacher."

When I was depressed I did think about suicide. Of course I never went through with it. Why? Because I'm too much of a coward. I spend hours with silent tears running down my cheeks and thinking how it could be possible to ever be happy again. A silent voice cried out from the darkness: "You are alone." I couldn't face what my parents and family would feel. Life is a gift. A gift to be cherished everyday. Even in the darkest of times. There are people who are much worse off, who have a reason to be depressed. No one would come to my funeral anyway, because nobody cares. They wouldn't even realize I'd have gone. Why am I forsaken by all? Being depressed means not caring for others, you are trapped inside yourself and others seem foreign to you.

Why does love never persevere? How can it fade? Can it be never-ending from a scientific point of view? The point is "to spread your seed". At least for males it is. Therefore it would only be logical that it fades, so the quest for a new partner can recommence.

Can there be peace on earth?
Sure when hell freezes over, manatees fly and dodos say: "I'm as dead as a human.'' Humans are greedy. They want they can't have and aren't happy with what they've got. The neighbour's garden looks greener, their house better and their money plentier, sorry plentiful. Once you've acquired an enormous fortune and you can have anything, you don't want it anymore because you CAN have it. If you eradicated everyone except for 10 people (5 men and 5 women) and dumped them in America (or anywhere seeing as no one else exists) there would be a war! Battles over the best woman, cheating, back-stabbing, best place to live, etc...

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